i m dying.. hardly can breath.
i m very sick n tired of wad she done.
i been tolerating again n again n again.
she call me bitch.
gd game.
who is the bitch there?
i dont wish to say so much.
i wanna start afresh all over again....

i close down my friendster a/c.
no pt having it.
she is the only one viewing it everyday oso.
wad the pt? i c no pt.
i m very tired.
i dont knw if i got any other strenght to continue tis...
or my heart will be able to take it a nt.
it hurts last night, really do.
no word to describe.
it been a while since it last hurts.
all tks to her.

i closing down tis as well. 2nd blog closed.
tis has been with me for the past one yr.
176 posts marked the end...
will there be a chance of blogging? i dont knw.
mayb tml i just set up my private blog? no knws rite...
but guess... i just wan a rest.
mentally, emotionally, physcially.
tks for all the support, tks.
bye peeps. so long shall we meet again...

HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF.
tks everyone for either celebrations, pressies or the bday greetings n wishes.
i really appreciated it.

firstly... i wanna tks...
JACKY & EDEN

seriously i dont knw y i wanna tks them.
1st, they threaten to throw me in the pool of water beside where we eating.
2nd, both of them are late. eden told me meet 11. 11 i call eden, he at bishan. jacky just end work. make me wait so long.
3rd, they both bully and leak out all my unglam secrets. fyi, george is there as well.
BUT DEN, one take his book out time and one take his rest time to plan this and meet up. really great. it a very advance one. but really very heart-warming to see both of them again. glad george n them can click. u cant imagine we chatted till almost 4am in the morning... LOL.

next to...
DIANA, XING, HUIMING, JOYCE

seriously i dont knw y i must tks them...
1st, they told me to meet 7pm. ms diana sms me at 6plus tell me she going hm after swimming. i was like, can i kill u pls? LOL. but i didnt lar.
2nd, they make me waiting for close to an hr in the restaruant.
3rd, they didnt wanna go club with me. =( [kidding LOL]
BUT DEN, they melt my heart with their cute pressie. n i seriously tks them for all the planning. i didnt do it myself, i m just following instructions. not forgetting the beautiful birthday cake which they smuggle in. tks lots ger. i hope u all enjoy yourself with all the entertain from mr romeno. =)


next...
MUMMY & DADDY
knowing tat my fone got prob, the 1st sugguestion they give is to change a phone. knowing i wanna to change the phone, they fork up the money. went to m1 shop the other day, wanna u600, but no stock. dad asked if i wanna k810i instead. temptated. hence he sign and upgrade my mummy to get the phone. i dont have a 3G sim card. dad was more excited den me, keep asking to change it.
it nice having them around. they r consistency providing me with wad i wan. i really thank them for it, seriously. i love them.

finally....
GEORGE SEAH WEI CHONG A.K.A MR BF
the person tat joined my frens for chatting session till 4am. the one tat joins my girls celebrations in silence. the one tat is always there to fetch me after work everyday without fail. ya, he is the one.
he bought me to jack place for dinner and his hm for cake cermony. he ganged up with his sis, blindfolded me for close to half an hr, while he trying to find bday song on youtube. he managed to suprise me, with a hello kitty cake. i m touched. in the mth of august, he give me a lot, breakfast in the morning when i stay over, my guess watch, kitty bear.... really gateful. nv once regret having him as my bf. the most regret thing y did i realise it earlier. tks baby for everything. i knw u will be reading tis, really tks. i love u.



lastly to...
SIMIN, MERVIN, REGINA, FAREHA, TINI, LIFANG, JIAYAN, WEILUN, ANGELA and rest for all the birthday wishes. sry if i miss out anyone, short minded cant blame.
tis post is just my gateful-ness to everyone. photos will post more on the next post if i m free okies?

will post update of birthday soon.
tks everyone tat happen to be part of it.
mayb visit diana blog to view one of the celebrations.
will update after tml.

sry for the empty-ness here...

haven been blogging. tired.
pr2 yesterday. stress the word.
but m glad everything is over lar.
tis sem is a sure pass. but start to worry abt next.

we reach 3 mths of our story.
i hope and i guess there will be more to come.
frens tat seen u asking me to cherish u.
they say u r a nice guy.
i wun admit tat fact, cos it true.
it just a short 3 mths n u proven everything to me.
although i might still say her name, still distrub u with it,
but in my heart i knw u love me wholeheartedly,
just like i do to u.
-i love u george-

i m bz.
project dead date due is like!

being a teacher is nt a easy task.
required lot of patience.
something which i m lacking.
seriously tough job.
but the most easy way to earn money, i must say.

things happening one after another.
i dont knw hw to cope.
i wish to remain strong.
i think i can.
but i knw there is always a pillar behind me to let me lean one.
glad mummy accepted him. =)
i hope everything will go well...

HAPPY 21ST ANGELA!!
hope u enjoy ur birthday celebrations.
will pass pressie to u this wk, hope u will like it.
i knw u will like it.
=)

wkends is passing faster n faster with a breeze.
with seah weichong beside me tat y.
his new job in office hrs is definately great.
more time to be each other.
i must seriously mention,
his advance birthday surprise definately touch me.
couple ring, and home-made breakfast.
n yes, i teared.
not cos the breakfast dont taste gd.
but cos no one had made breakfast for me tis way.
no one touched me tat way, seriously.
cheese hotdog cant compared to the breakfast.
french toast, pancake, hotdog, bacon, breakfast ham.
tks baby. i love u. =)

pardon me for the mushy stuffs written above.
yeah, counting down like 15 days to my birthday.
i bet huiming, xing, joyce r already welcome-ing me to the 20's grp happily.
a few gd fren asking hw m i celebrating.
but sad to disappoint them.
this yr i m nt going to do any celebration.
but if u wish to, u may wish to plan it yourself and let me know the time, date n location.
too lazy n tired to think of location and all already.
and ya, i wanna mention abt EDEN.

i am seriously very touched by him.
thru not knowing him for very long.
prehaps less den half an yr? or slightly more then tat.
he appeared during my bday celebration last yr.
appeared early, book tables for me, disturbing me as usual.
tis yr....
he planned for me n jacky.
invite other ppl like serene andy leonard.
doing everything.
THANKS is all the words i cld say.
despite not knwing him long, and he is doing all tis for me.
eden, if u r reading this:
i m really glad to be ur fren.
helping me thru my a/cing project.
planning my birthday celebration.
u nv fail to be there with jacky.
is always u tat make me u n jacky gather together,
with bonds will cling together.
will nv forget hw u n jacky smuggle me into the gents,
while i n afraid to go ladies.
seriously u r great.
tks for being my fren.

will nt blog as often now.
heart breaks is nt easy to mend.

u said tat he hurt u n u teared.
but do u knw u hurt me a lot too?
the hurt was too much till i cld no longer hold my tears.

these few days was just concentrating on project.
but mostly was nua-ing onli. si bei tired. tat y.
had an advance birthday celebration by boss n manager.
but they r going to have one for me too!!
omg. like i m stealing fareha limelight.
told her. but she like the tot of celebrating together.
pics nt send to me yet.
will post in up when i get it n when i m free.